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If I could just… stop thinking for ten seconds, that would

If I could just… stop thinking for ten seconds, that would

I think this month’s deceptively timely responses in the post-chapter

I think this month’s deceptively timely responses in the post-chapter

-stares at new patient forms-I’ve seen this practitioner before.

-stares at new patient forms-I’ve seen this practitioner before.

I like to forget I have social anxiety problems.Agreeing to spend

I like to forget I have social anxiety problems.Agreeing to spend

People friending me post-game in Overwatch and then wanting to

People friending me post-game in Overwatch and then wanting to

…Yeah, I just seem to be in a place of “can’t” with…

…Yeah, I just seem to be in a place of “can’t” with…

I miss writing fanfic.That’s it, that’s the entire post.

I miss writing fanfic.That’s it, that’s the entire post.

I’ve spent Easter writing 2000 words of an incredibly self-indulgent

I’ve spent Easter writing 2000 words of an incredibly self-indulgent

Every once in a while, there comes these slight inklings that

Every once in a while, there comes these slight inklings that

Step One: Do not trip while skating.Failed step one.Ow.

Step One: Do not trip while skating.Failed step one.Ow.

My evening’s mostly been me explaining to myself that I would

My evening’s mostly been me explaining to myself that I would

I’m not suicidal. I’m not. I’m not, I’m not, I’m not.Fuck.It’s

I’m not suicidal. I’m not. I’m not, I’m not, I’m not.Fuck.It’s

Sort of hard to keep digging a funk deeper when everyone insists

Sort of hard to keep digging a funk deeper when everyone insists

Sometimes I’m scared I’ll never be okay. Not with the health

Sometimes I’m scared I’ll never be okay. Not with the health

Fuck it, I wish I were dead. There’s no way I can do this year.

Fuck it, I wish I were dead. There’s no way I can do this year.

tfw things are okay for two seconds, maybe even better than okay,

tfw things are okay for two seconds, maybe even better than okay,

I can’t scream out loud because I live with enough people that

I can’t scream out loud because I live with enough people that

I mean, if you look at it logically, it isn’t necessarily that

I mean, if you look at it logically, it isn’t necessarily that

Can I go a day without wanting to kill myself, please.Why are

Can I go a day without wanting to kill myself, please.Why are

I want to die I want to die I want to die.I can’t die because

I want to die I want to die I want to die.I can’t die because

Every time I stop writing I want to die, and I do not have the

Every time I stop writing I want to die, and I do not have the

I was supposed to see my shrink tomorrow, but scheduling mishaps,

I was supposed to see my shrink tomorrow, but scheduling mishaps,

So for those of you who have been tracking my psychological meltdowns

So for those of you who have been tracking my psychological meltdowns

tea-kitten:  when you start shipping something you know is totally

tea-kitten: when you start shipping something you know is totally

I believe the time to give up and admit my own hopelessness is

I believe the time to give up and admit my own hopelessness is

Victory is mine.

Victory is mine.

 Depression is back with bells on. Does that make sense? I don’t

Depression is back with bells on. Does that make sense? I don’t

It’s been a week for things. I guess I’m doing my

It’s been a week for things. I guess I’m doing my

My therapist’s office believes in asking patients what

My therapist’s office believes in asking patients what

I can’t tell if I’m suicidally depressed because

I can’t tell if I’m suicidally depressed because

 The fantastic thing about chronic illness is that if you find

The fantastic thing about chronic illness is that if you find

On what to bring to a new medical office:Medication List: It

On what to bring to a new medical office:Medication List: It

There’s a lot of stuff I’m finally going over with my therapist.

There’s a lot of stuff I’m finally going over with my therapist.

The Easter Frisbee is here.

The Easter Frisbee is here.

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